High Five For Friday- 05.02.16

This week, dear Reader, has left me feeling weak and heartbroken.  On Monday, I was sick and went to the doctor.  He diagnosed an ear infection to go along with my nasty cold.  Hubby and I then headed to my follow-up ultrasound.

We were thrilled to find out that we were expecting on January 3.  It was a dream come true.  My pregnancy, however, did not progress as it was supposed to and we headed for an ultrasound when I was 7 weeks.  We were saddened to find out that there was no evidence of a baby and that the pregnancy was measuring quite behind.  We tried to keep our hope alive that we would see baby at the follow-up ultrasound.

Monday's ultrasound confirmed our fears.  They did not find any evidence of pregnancy.  Although I knew that this was probably going to be the case, I was still heartbroken.  I didn't want to lose my baby.

I saw my doctor on Tuesday who referred me to an OB.  I was admitted to the hospital, much to my shock.  I thought that I would be sent home.  We frantically phoned my Mom who was with Miss. E and she assured us that all was well and she would stay with Miss. E.  My hormone levels were still climbing and my doctor was worried about infection.  I spent two nights in the hospital.  I was in pain, heartbroken and missing Miss. E.  We have never left her overnight anywhere and the separation was killing me.  I was sent home on Thursday and have many follow up appointments booked.

I can't remember the last time I felt this low or cried this much.  I have been clinging to my faith and to my Hubby.  Mr. Roger's wise mother once said that in tragedy we should look for the helpers and that is where my focus is this Friday.  Here are my five:

1.)  I have leaned heavily on my faith this week.  I have whispered "Jesus help me" more times than I can count.  I find comfort and hope in my faith.

2.)  My wonderful Hubby has been my rock this week.  He has held me up when I was crumbling, rubbed my back and cared for me.  I am married to the most amazing man and I am so thankful for his love.

3.)  My parents.  They stayed with our daughter and kept her happy.  They took great care of her and gave us support.  My Dad even ran a bag up to the city where I was in the hospital.  I was grateful to have a few of my own things.

4.)  My friends.  I have felt the prayers, love and support of my friends through this week.  Their love and concern helped lift me up.

5.)  My workplace has been extremely understanding and supportive.  They accepted my sick note without hesitation.

I am not sure how the next few weeks will go on the blog.  I hope to be able to keep posting, but between my illness, ear infection and ongoing miscarriage I may have to step back from the blog.  I hope you will stick around until I am able to get my posting back on track.

I am linking up with the lovely ladies below: